And here is Gerontion vis-a-vis the same crisis: . . . What will the spider do, Suspend its operations, will the weevil Delay? De Bailhache, Fresca, Mrs. Cammel, whirled Beyond the circuit of the shuddering Bear In fractured atoms. Gull against the wind, in the windy straits Of Belle Isle, or running on the Horn, White feathers in the snow, the Gulf claims, And an old man driven by the Trades To a sleepy corner. Tenants of the house, Thoughts of a dry brain in a dry season. --- CR |
"On Margate sands I can...." P. M. Chokh Raj <[log in to unmask]> wrote: the existential dilemma in 'The Family Reunion' (cf. 'Sweeney Agonistes') At the beginning, eight years ago, I felt, at first, that sense of separation, Of isolation
unredeemable, irrevocable -- It's eternal, or gives a knowledge of eternity, Because it feels eternal while it lasts. That is one hell. Then the numbness came to cover it -- that is another -- That was the second hell of not being there, The degradation of being parted from my self, From the self which persisted only as an eye, seeing. All this last year, I could not fit myself together: When I was inside the old dream, I felt all the same emotion Or lack of emotion, as before: the same
loathing Diffused, I not a person, in a world not of persons But only of contaminating presences. And then I had
no horror of my action, I only felt the repetition of it Over and over. When I was outside, I could associate
nothing of it with myself. Though nothing else was real. I thought foolishly That when I got back to Wishwood, as I had left it, Everything
would fall into place. But they prevent it. I still have to find out what their meaning is. Here I have been finding A misery long forgotten, and a new torture, The shadow of something behind our meagre childhood, Some origin of wretchedness. Is that what they would show me? --- in the thick of it CR It's the same crisis as in TWL. Different context. P. M. Chokh Raj <[log in to unmask]> wrote Re: TS Eliot vis-a-vis the existential crisis "a lifetime burning in every moment" "Hell is oneself; Hell is alone, the other figures in it Merely
projections. There is nothing to escape from And nothing to escape to. One is always
alone." CR |